Wrong move?

A wrong move can change the smallest things, it can also change the biggest things.

Although it's just minor, I feel so disappointed with myself.

One moment I thank you for being understanding, the other moment I got frustrated cos you don't seem to be understanding.

It's me being not understanding now.

I'm just never understanding.

I just feel like you throw me away easily just because I told you I have a meeting on and I took it as you were being understanding, only evil people like me won't have trust and understanding towards people.

On the other note.,

I don't know if I should surrender to my life or what.
Being stuck in a course that I don't like, thought of moving to the other business-related course in poly and my kin doesn't support me.

It's like, this fucking course, you know how fucked up it is?
If I don't study and leave my studies alone, I will say nothing but I studied equally hard or even harder than others, I just can't, I just can't!!!

I studied and then what I got is just 60/100?
Don't ask me to be thankful that I passed.

I'm sick of getting low grades because I always had high grades in sec school.

because of my WRONG MOVE, I am in this course now, people at my age are already a uni grad, me? higher nitec.
I'm just a piece of useless party plate, what can I contribute at my age?

Fuck up?

How about other platforms where I can study better and have more understanding towards it? I'm liking this current course that I'm studying by bits, that smallest bits.
How could I excel so much in my secondary school?
I should have just progressed to 5NA, yes no point looking back, just an analysis.

And what my kin said is I can earn more money being a "server specialist"
Seriously, does that even matter?

Where's my rights to achieve what I want to do?

I can't even enter arts school despite a good portfolio, enough! I studied hard and not whine for not being in my desired course, now I can't even go to the course I want in poly?

that's why,
I have to surrender to life.

Because, I'm just dumb.