Recent events.

Dreamstage 2013






Got into finals, didn't win anything but another priceless experience.
We worked really hard as usual but this time round, right after the competition, I felt....lethargic.

Wanna thank someone and she is Cheryl aka ROBIN.



After so long, we are still able to dance together and help to improve each other.
You are so supportive and dedicated to whatever kind of dance we need to put up.
Thanks for having faith in me and giving me the opportunity to lead you all.
Especially giving so many juicy ideas and taking in my suggestion in terms of the songs and attire.
It's just the start! We will have more to achieve!
I know I'm really old and seldom talk  I am really old so I seldom laugh also. Haha, thanks for understanding that I'm old and my knees tend to produce the friction sound.
Tarzan is the song I really want to do it to the best in the entire world and we are there already!
Don't feel inferior or disheartened if you cannot get the feel of some moves, it's just all your mind playing tricks on you, you look as normal as anyone does!

Ah finally school holidays for me!
It's only 3 weeks and the 2nd week is ending.

Have been attending vocal and dance lessons during the holidays, learned alot of things and decided to work harder and apply it.
From vocal clinic to power ballad to rock vocals to keyboard to hiphop lessons, I'm really for folk vocals and guitar lessons.

Life is still sustainable without leading my former dance cca, trying to get over it and restart myself.
It's either I delete something and start something new or I will not move on. That's very me....
Of course, friends who truly care for me will stay in contact with me in any ways.
Thanks people like Fion, Zifeng and Farah who text me and chat with me.

I'm so touched after meeting up with Farah, she was my vice president so she never fail to show concern for me. Thanks for telling me about your life too. If I become a shareholder of an organization, I will definitely include you and recruit you as my right hand man. What can you do? It's way more than I can think. You can be a designer, a fashion designer, a manager, an instructor and more! Let's dream big.

Taken with Farah last week.




I need to have a capital before I become a successful person.
I am lacking in alot of areas.
My phone line is cut off because I didn't pay my bills, but I really cannot be bothered.
I really don't know what is the priority now.
I still got to support myself in every aspect too.
The only worry now is my laptop, it's quite precious to me, although I'm not close with my dad..he brought me to purchase it, it's all the memories I had with him, but the laptop hardware is spoiled now although it still can be used. Sigh

I hate my life sometimes.
I feel that I never grow.
I'm at the awkward stage now where I feel like I'm matured when I'm around younger friends and I feel childish when I am around older friends.

Somehow I don't know why when I see church people acting kind I feel annoyed, especially when you can't be part of their community just cos you are not this or that. Ok fuck this is SOCIAL BIASED.
Don't choose who to be in your community,
Another man-made logic.

What is social biased?
Everywhere you go is social biased.
If you want to get a job.

1) Experience
2) Package (Your dressing, average size, good skin condition)

If you lack of all those, your chances of getting the job is low.

I really cannot predict what our generations will be like in 10 years time as working adults, it's like, it would be more social biased.

Criticism makes us stronger, I don't feel any hurt being criticized in terms of anything. It's parts and parcels of life.. Prove to yourself your worth, if you re strong enough, nothing can stop you from doing whatever you want to.

The disappointment is someone who lacks discipline and motivation don't appreciate whatever you do to them. People who can't take in constructive criticism and hardships are labelled as spoon-fed kids. You'd better feel burdened and appreciative that someone decided to help you under so many bad circumstances they have. It's an effort to know someone and make someone to understand you, but you failed at it.
I wish you good luck.

Hang on there, life is not my type.
Nothing amazes me nowadays.
No longer feeling a need to live.
I think God is taking me away cause on a few occasions I got awaken up by breathing difficulties.
My heart is playing tricks on me, even doctor sent me to the heart specialist.
From young I was already diagnosed with heart valve defect.
I think I'm just being bored but whatever occasions here happened for real.
I need to stack up lots of pillows to breath properly.
It's nothing to me though, used to it.
Even the cats deserve a longer life than me.

Well, you'd never know.
Everything annoys me.