Find Rest My Soul, In Christ Alone.

Thursday, May 24, 2012, 11:42 AM

2012 ; A New Look of Life

This photo showed me wearing slipper.
I fell down when doing a perfect hand stand, I fell to the front and injured my toe.
Laugh now, LOL! What a stupid person am I.

I realised that I haven't been resting like I could do in the past.
Who am I in the past?
I am more of childlike and dependable on others.
What they said and I would do.
Where they go and I would follow.
Now I have my own direction and goals.
After all, I still believe in God.

Since 1 January 2012, I performed and competed in the event for countdown.
Now, I am preparing for another performances and competitions.
Through all these, I learned that in order to achieve goals, you got to work really hard.
And still, being humble and forgiving are the keys to be a better leader.
God has been giving me testing to make me stronger as a president.

I got critics and all these will motivate me further to improve.

Korean Dance Wave is really OFFICIAL, I still cannot believe the fact.

One of my accomplishment in life that I will never forget.
I am one of the motivation to others for working hard and getting fruitful results.
I can imagine if Mr Cheong and Mr Wann never existed, I might not be able to succeed.

What I need is to be listened and mentored.
I feel so lost at times, why is it so weird now being a leader?
It's like, I'm all on my own.

Administrative wise, emotional wise and ideally wise : It's not like a tree that grows alot of leaves. I'm just the root that nothing can support me.

~~I feel like I am not being understood and related emotionally because I am older.~~

Who can understand the fear of having no money to live on after paying loads of bills?
Who can understand the feeling of having no parental guidance when one of your parent abandoned you and the other went away with a guy?
Who can understand the feeling of brainstorming for so many ideas then putting it into actions and then get rejected?

Yes, I understand - That's what my friends will say out of their concern.

It's like the egg yoke that must be stirred with the egg white in order to blend in.
If not, I will always remain the egg yoke which nobody can blend in.
Nobody can relate with.
I have nothing towards my friends, they all are really nice and good to me.
Be it my classmates, cca friends and outside friends.
They all have been reserved in my memory book, as in I will not forget them because we have been through so much tears and laughters.

That's all for my post.
I am more concerned on my studies.
Even if I really want to study hard, I need teacher's help.

~~Xcode, what's that?~~
~~Virtual ..... , what's that?~~

God, please look after my parents and sister. i pray that you let them to have peace in their work and also in the life, in Jesus' Name I lift them up to you, Amen.