Truthfully it's gonna be a heart-wrenching time for me to make this decision.

1) I have formed this group personally.

2) We have been through alot of ups and downs together, we met up almost weekly to practice dance. It's the feelings we have here, I wonder if they will miss these moments but I do.

3) We even participated in competition together. GOD, I'm like crying out to GOD :( I remember they helped me put on make up, THEY WERE SO EXCITED, they were really WORKING HARD BEFORE THE COMPETITION ITSELF. If I give up on them, I am a loser.

Another thing, I have been searching for new members to the group, since they haven't join the group yet, if let's say the current group cannot sustain, I will reform a new group.

I have come to know these two girls from the studio I go to dance.

1) She goes to street jazz and lyrical hip hop classes, I just browsed through her facebook photos and see that she's a ballet dancer as well. She is keen :)

2) This girl I first got to know in lyrical hip hop class, she goes to kpop class as well to learn kpop mtv dance. I haven't asked her yet.

3) My classmate, Syazana- She has the potential and she clones the dance moves perfectly. She is keen too.

Sining advised me "You gotta really go through audition with them before recruiting them."

And it is also why I look out for the little details in the potential people here, they must have some boogie boogie in their life man.

Anyway, really thank God for Sining.

I think that's the earliest photo of me and her sitting together on the last day of camp, she sat beside me, through that time we weren't so close yet but really thank God that through dance we have gotten so close, I never regret. And she was like a tired sleeping only haha!

I guess I'm really a person who is gonna treasure the moments when I'm about to lose it, sigh.

At the end of the day, my heart cannot adapt too fast....:(

Sigh.

Dance is my life, family and friends are the light of my life :')

Without them, I'm not able to go this far till now.

On the other hand, talk about school.

I have really been missing in action from school this week. One thing is family, the other thing is the emotional part I gotta handle, I don't like it when I cry in class because of my mum then my classmates come worrying for me, I just gotta make them worry and that's it, why should I.

The other one is I have total no interest in this course, I don't even buy textbooks. I shouldn't have transferred course but I never regretted for knowing them in QM1101A :)

My parents don't even bother much of me going to school, my sister is the core of the family who will keep nagging at me, she will even threaten me and say if I miss a day of school next week, she will report to my aunt. I know she is doing it out of concern but I cannot take it when she overdo it, I am a grown up and I hope you see that I'm doing my part, even being missing from school, I don't spend money and I'm finding jobs too, it's a matter of luck, it's either they don't call me for interview or they called me but I couldn't meet their criteria in terms of the working hours, I still have to go school.

I don't want to be debarre, before being kick out from school or what, I hope I'm the one who will hand up the letter of dropping out from school so at least my record isn't that bad and I will be able to go for another intake in 2012.

I don't want this to happen, I am only blindly wasting my time.

I should just wake up my idea and commit to studies, even how much I have no interest or I don't understand. I'm like in a confusion now.

Due to family matters, I am very reluctant to say. I believe in independence, every family has their matters so why should I be grumbling about mine on twitter or facebook, I admit I do grumble on twitter but after that I will delete the tweets, my conscience just cannot take it.

Forget it.

Signing off.