Why?

I just feel like screaming the word 'why'.
It is unexpected, no one wants that to happen.

But don't forget, God has his plans.
Follow it, follow yeah?
God gives you the wisest directions.

I hope I have a time machine
I want back the past, happy moments spent.

The past is past, it was over.

Saddening, it's unbearable.
Don't, please don't.
If you do, how am I going to be joyful?

I pray, God please fill me with joys.
I wanted to cry but I could not.
What to do?

Take care, I seem to look ignorant but the truth is that I feel the knife stabbing into my heart every time I think of you.