Find Rest My Soul, In Christ Alone.

Sunday, July 13, 2008, 10:21 PM

Time flies really fast, weekend is coming to an end in a few hours time.
Shall prepare my heart for school tomorrow and pray hard that our class will turn quieter. Two days later will be my English preliminary exam, I'm feeling very distressed with my upcoming exams, I won't fall into this state if I'd started studying during the STARTING of the year. I'm no longer the 'top' in class, there's nothing for me to be proud of being the first or whatsoever. It didn't change their mindsets towards me, I'm still a dumb person to them. Nevertheless, the person that I should look to isn't them but God! I will think astray at times, but the 'HS' will always reassure his presence that makes me to feel secured.

I'm feeling excited for tomorrow! The reason links to my classmates, thinking of how are we going to spend our time during school really excites me! I can't really bring myself into the prom night scene, I will surely burst into tears, four years of friendship and we see each other almost everyday. Wow, I shouldn't dwell as the day will come~!! No. no!
Another thing is that the other buddy of mine(will not be revealed) will be going to school tomorrow, phew I'm so relieved that she initiated by messaging me. Tomorrow after school I will be going to her house and tutor her English language! No, no! My English language sucks to the core, but if God wants me to, I shall obey!
I hope that dream won't come true, I hope that my composition will be written in 300 words instead of 3 words written as shown in my dream!! No, no!! Sarcastic anyway, three words? *faints* Oh ya, I want more than 300 words written in my essay, I'm pointing that I can do it!! It's just a matter of some careless grammar mistakes that I always make, I must check thoroughly through the essay even by hook or by crook .

Let's drop the topic.
I'm having many MANY doubts in myself!!

Am I so dumb?
Am I lousy?
Am I slow?
Am I rebellious?

I agree that I'm dumb, ya look at my studies now and you'll know.
I agree that I'm lousy, I cannot talk rightly during critical times.
I agree that I'm slow, I do things slowly and I'm a slow-learner.
I agree that I'm rebellious, I always talk back as and when I like.

Yes, what she said were certainly right!
I must shine for God ya? I must be a star, not referring to an idol or what but a star who shines for God! I'll repent, pray and change!!! Die, die must change her mindset towards me. *Evil laughs*

I'm sleepy, zzz
I lost my Maths textbook and Science workbook, I'm doomed, for goodness sake how am I going to study? Why am I so ill-fated? I should not grumble, oh ya!! Grumbling is showing that I am complaining!! No, no!! Never mind, the truth will set me free. It's alright that I lost the books, I believe in miracles and I have faith in God!
No, no!! Somewhat tomorrow I will be punished to write an essay of "the importance of not misplacing your Science workbook".
Belveder was told to write an essay on "What did you dreamt of just now"? Haha, because he slept during Science lesson.

I shall turn off early tonight, as prevention is better than punishment. Take precaution and everything will goes fine! Hopefully tomorrow will be a bright sunny day with cheerful hearts of everyone? If tomorrow rains, I will fall asleep in class!! No, no!!
It's okay, I don't care!! Haha.
I want to sleep now!!
BYE BYE! (: