Find Rest My Soul, In Christ Alone.

Monday, April 21, 2008, 3:44 PM

Today wasn't a good day for me.
I felt somehow discouraged, i also think that i am a failure for today.
Woke up today at 6.00a.m. I started calling MeiQi at 6.20a.m.
Since then i was calling her until around 7.00a.m.
I don't really mind spending so much efforts and time for her, as long as she will go school, end her probation ASAP and she will not go to girl's home. I will felt very relieved then.
I trusted her that she will go school today, so i carried on calling her until 7.00a.m. And my mother kept nagging at me, so i took my school uniform and towel, started preparing to bathe. Then Meiqi messaged me and apologized that she couldn't go school today because her nail was polished black, and she don't have the nail polish to clean her fingers. I replied her on borrowing the nail polish that i have at home, as it's not really mine but it is my mother's one.
And she replied me that today's lessons will be boring. So i tried to persuade her but to no avail.
Until 7.10a.m. i already bathed, then I was still messaging her. My mother shouted at me, i tried to explain. She wouldn't really listen to my explanation. If the one was my father, he wouldn't have shouted at me but he would just talked to me in a nice tone. My mother was damn harsh to me.
Are all mothers like that? I really want to know.
There i was trying my best to help my fellow classmate but here was a misunderstanding. There's really alot of misunderstanding between my mother and I.

Everything that i always ask her is a silly and illogical question to her. Yes i am stupid, i am right now a Normal Technical Student. Normal Technical Students aren't stupid, they just didn't make any effort to push themselves hard! That's ALL! It is just only your silly thinking and i will not care about what you think about me. My ex-instructor told me that no questions are silly, stupid or whatsoever in this world. I somehow disagreed, but what he said really encouraged me. Because he always answer my silly questions. But it's a silly question to my mother.
Let me ask you, "Why the sand was cold when i stepped into it at Sentosa"? I asked my mother but what she replied was "stop asking me silly question as i will never answer you". Wasn't that hurting? If you don't know the answer why couldn't you just confess it? You need not said all those craps to me. Tears somehow dropped from my eyes when the desired question from me cannot be answered.
Everything is fine now! Neh-mind, i don't want to pursue it anymore. As it will be really unfair and unpleasant if I really do. I must rejoice in everything some more since it was already over!
It's okay lah! Anyway i will not give up on Meiqi :] Even though my other friends advice me to focus more on myself, but i think that she really need someone's guidance alot. If i don't take initiative and the first step to help her, who will?
Meiqi, don't give up on yourself! You know what? I have 100% faith in you, is just the matter if you are going to work hard anot! Otherwise, i really believe that you can succeed in everything you do! What i said is 100% pure sure & true :) Although lessons may be boring (i also agree), we still have to strive on ya? Don't let any small things to tempt you from doing the right thing. Going to school isn't harmful. Yup, everyone have their own views and thinkings. I know you for the 4th year now, i also wish you to be in a state of having directions, and i don't wish you to go into girl's home. Really hahas, jiayous! Ily! <3

Okay so i went late for school today.Wahh, whole lot of students were late too! Every Mondays are like that, it's always e same. I also didn't attend detention class.
Lessons were okay today :)

We had afternoon assembly!!
It was omfg superrr... BORED!
What Secondary 3... Contest.
Nothing linked to us ma. We tolerated then.
But then... we ran away eventually :P
It was already school dismissed but yet the upper secondary level was still having the stupid assembly.

It was raining cats and dogs.
I decided to go home then. I bought chicken rice from school (added the chicken). So the total price was $2.00, the original price is $1.50.
We exited school from the front gate. Daltone, ChangYou, Dzul and I. We ran lor! HAHA it was thrilling. We ran to the 334 bus stop. But before the bus stop, we crossed the road-crossing. For goodness sake, it was raining super heavily. Then I was the first one among them, I wanted to cross... BUT.. the stupid moron van didn't let us. The driver just zoomed past. Imagine if i took the first step? You will see my face in The Straits Time (Home Section) obituaries. LOLS
Then we scolded vulgarities. It was uncontrollable to me. Because e driver still blinked at US! Ridiculous right? I scolded him f**k you plus pointed him a middle finger (sorry but no offense, i shouldn't have pointed at him!). It was really very ridiculous. We heck care de even if he had stopped his car and fight with us de :] Wah my tian the Chang You damn funny. Still added "aiyah don't know how to drive don't drive lah" It seems nothing funny here, but when we were running across the road and it was already damn thrilling, plus the words chang you added. HAHA~~

Daltone, Dzul and I bused home. They alighted after a stop only. Therefore, i was really very bored. Then I recalled. Oh ya! Had to ask my mother how to go home in such weather. In the first place she was angry with me about this morning's misunderstanding. Then she said "use the shelter lah"! Then i replied "Okay bye bye"! and i hanged the phone. It was quite pathetic that I thought she was really heartless at the moment. Because my house there is renovating right now (to build the lift for every floor in the HDB block), then the workers there made the way very complicated. Erm.. where's e shelter ah? You will doubt it if you come to my house.
But i really thank god. My mama have a heart after all, she called me and asked which bus i boarded on and updated me that she will be fetching me at the bus stop where i was alighting. Wasn't that good?

Anyway, the chicken rice story haven't ended yet.It was the most expensive and worthless chicken rice i ever had. I started eating my chicken rice when I reached home. As i opened the box, wahh, there is no difference between the $1.50 and the $2.00. Adding the rice is free, but adding the chicken you ought to pay more 50cents. Ok i didn't mind so i added chicken. To my astonishment, the amount of rice they added were little, same goes to the chicken!! My mother said that we can complain to the school, she asked me to take photo of the chicken rice.. err. LOLS! Take photo sia... but i didn't. Perhaps the vendors there were too busy then, although there were only a few customers purchasing the Chicken RICE during the period of time!
lols... i shall forgive and forget.
Learn from this lesson, next time don't ever spend 50cents adding the chicken when purchasing the chicken rice from our school.

To Huayians- It's not advisable to add chicken for 50cents in our school. I would rather purchase outside chicken rice for only $2.00. This really make no differences!! And the outside one would be the better choice for me!! Hahas..

Okkk.. today really wasn't a good day for me.
I shall give thanks IN all circumstances. Perhaps today is the day which i can learn many things! *laughs*

I'm going to bathe liao!!
BYES!!