Find Rest My Soul, In Christ Alone.

Sunday, April 27, 2008, 1:09 PM

Fearful

Again today is Sunday.
Tml is Monday :(

I'm feeling dreadful and fearful to go school. Will I walk the wrong path again? Something really prompt me to, I couldn't really just control myself from sinning.... thinking of tomorrow have to turn up for the Detention Class, the 'late' word really flashed into my sight. I started to fear, and deliberated whether should I not attend the Detention Class? I felt useless and helpless at this moment. What can I do? The same old routine screened to my eyes- wake up immediately call Meiqi, then most probably we will be late, I kept wandering.

No one really give me some directions, console me, advice me or even counsel me. I am alone in doing everything. So what should I do? Continue on, strive on? I encountered several problems. Who should I consult and seek to?
Absolutely not my mama- she's hot tempered and she's unapproachable (she's not really that bad anw!)
Or my papa? I hardly see him- and what he says are always the same.
Teachers? I too shy luhh :P

None of the above.... I'm lonesomely thinking now, who knows what I'm struggling, concerning and worrying about? I'm really tormented with sorrows. Where's my soul? I want it back... Argh! Sick of that.. I'm so desperate to stop these worries.

I gonna stop worrying! Because I have faith that everything will be OkAY and ALRIGHT! Anyway, I am like a Chameleon.. I can be high at times, but down at times too!
Worrying will just add more pressure to me. Therefore, stop those worries ba...
Although it's 100% pure hard to change my mindset... :P I'm still dealing with the problems now. I want to solve it asap ;) Lalas..

Staying at home today... because i'm an obedient child :D